Saturday, October 24, 2009

cinco!

i need to remember your face
even though ive never seen it really
every last little detail
it's all that keeps me happy in my day
in this light you look amazing
as always, but you knew that anyway

oh, ohoh, i look out of my window
into that black and starry night
i see you in the stars
i see you in the lights
just sparking on those buildings
reflected always in my smile

you succeed to make me feel
like the happiness will never go now
i know you'll never know this but
you bring a certain sparkle to my life
everything i do i think of
you and i get distracted all the time


oh, ohoh, i look out of my window
into that black and starry night
i see you in the stars
i see you in the lights
just sparking on those buildings
reflected always in my smile

i see you so clearly in my
dreams and they never cease to fade one bit
i don't want to wake up in the
morning, if that is perfection i know
i'll always have a bit of my
heart left to you, oh my, oh my, oh my.


oh, ohoh, i look out of my window
into that black and starry night
i see you in the stars
i see you in the lights
just sparking on those buildings
reflected always in my smile

i can just stalk you on twitter
and watch your vlogs and that that takes me through it
otherwise that day would be
rather aweful and a shame well lifes not
worth livign without a bit of
MOTIVATION!


oh, ohoh, i look out of my window
into that black and starry night
i see you in the stars
i see you in the lights
just sparking on those buildings
reflected always in my smile


:)


haha,

Sunday, October 11, 2009

change myself




well i knew i would be scared
but i didn't know how much
i had to stand on my own two feet
breathe a gasp of air from this cruel world
nothing like i've known before
i've always been so confident
it was so different and shocking
to have to think before i speak


C
you can never understand
why i can't be myself
maybe i'm better off 
writing sad songs
hoping someone will understand 
one day 
my heart's not beautiful;
it never was
just tell me that because i know
and i need a reason


well the people i thought were shy
they really aren't any more
perspectives on life
change so quickly
i'm falling back down to earth
i can't have my head in the clouds forever
but accepting myself
is harder that i ever thought



you can never understand
why i can't be myself
maybe i'm better off 
writing sad songs
hoping someone will understand 
one day 
my heart's not beautiful;
it never was
just tell me that because i know
and i need a reason


no, i'm not a typically cool girl 
with pages from elle on her walls
i could be 
but it just wouldn't be me
i've had too much illusion already
it's time to get back to basics
time to take away all these
lies and falsehoods



you can never understand
why i can't be myself
maybe i'm better off 
writing sad songs
hoping someone will understand 
one day 
my heart's not beautiful;
it never was
just tell me that because i know
and i need a reason


if you'd see me as just a girl
hopefully we could be better
i don't like pretending
but maybe it's the only way
i don't want to change 
but maybe it's for the best, the best
so i won't be stuck
this was forever



you can never understand
why i can't be myself
maybe i'm better off 
writing sad songs
hoping someone will understand 
one day 
my heart's not beautiful;
it never was
just tell me that because i know
and i need a reason



you can never understand
why i can't be myself
maybe i'm better off 
writing sad songs
hoping someone will understand 
one day 
my heart's not beautiful;
it never was
just tell me that because i know
and i need a reason


find me.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

cuatro.

the not so gentle gentleman.


are you real
or are you just a ghost
don't haunt me
you scare me the most
dont trust me
i'll make my own demands
you dont know me
but you can do the best you can
theres nothing you can do
no puppetier to pull the strings
you dont have a clue
do you?


this is not just another heart you can break
you tease and delude me
then reality hits
if you say you dont know me, well
ha ha. 
cause you just blew it.


do you know 
theres these thoughts
they take over
wash you away
but no you dont know
theres nothing here anymore
theres a hole where 
thoughts of you
they used to be
how she asked you a question
you gave this answer 
that made me hurt inside



this is not just another heart you can break
you tease and delude me
then reality hits
if you say you dont know me, well
ha ha. 
cause you just blew it.


how we get on so well
well you always knew
youve known all along
havnt you?
well youll just break it to me
ever so nicely
like a gentleman
well youre not so gentle
anymore
you know it
and you love it
dont deny it.



this is not just another heart you can break
you tease and delude me
then reality hits
if you say you dont know me, well
ha ha. 
cause you just blew it.


i dont care
not today
you can't hurt me now
but somehow
i still feel the same way
i feel pain
why is this?
you know i dont know
i will describe nothing
id do it any day
ill put a price on your head
so the pain will stop



this is not just another heart you can break
you tease and delude me
then reality hits
if you say you dont know me, well
ha ha. 
cause you just blew it.



this is not just another heart you can break
you tease and delude me
then reality hits
if you say you dont know me, well
ha ha. 
cause you just blew it.