change myself

well i knew i would be scared

but i didn't know how much

i had to stand on my own two feet

breathe a gasp of air from this cruel world

nothing like i've known before

i've always been so confident

it was so different and shocking

to have to think before i speak

C

you can never understand

why i can't be myself

maybe i'm better off 

writing sad songs

hoping someone will understand 

one day 

my heart's not beautiful;

it never was

just tell me that because i know

and i need a reason

well the people i thought were shy

they really aren't any more

perspectives on life

change so quickly

i'm falling back down to earth

i can't have my head in the clouds forever

but accepting myself

is harder that i ever thought

you can never understand

why i can't be myself

maybe i'm better off 

writing sad songs

hoping someone will understand 

one day 

my heart's not beautiful;

it never was

just tell me that because i know

and i need a reason

no, i'm not a typically cool girl 

with pages from elle on her walls

i could be 

but it just wouldn't be me

i've had too much illusion already

it's time to get back to basics

time to take away all these

lies and falsehoods

you can never understand

why i can't be myself

maybe i'm better off 

writing sad songs

hoping someone will understand 

one day 

my heart's not beautiful;

it never was

just tell me that because i know

and i need a reason

if you'd see me as just a girl

hopefully we could be better

i don't like pretending

but maybe it's the only way

i don't want to change 

but maybe it's for the best, the best

so i won't be stuck

this was forever

you can never understand

why i can't be myself

maybe i'm better off 

writing sad songs

hoping someone will understand 

one day 

my heart's not beautiful;

it never was

just tell me that because i know

and i need a reason

you can never understand

why i can't be myself

maybe i'm better off 

writing sad songs

hoping someone will understand 

one day 

my heart's not beautiful;

it never was

just tell me that because i know

and i need a reason

find me.